Moms birthday letter

I feel your presence around me
It's comforting to know you're here
You give me a sense of calmness
A sense of peace that I so need
That sense of a mothers love I rarely feel
Since you've been gone
How I miss your touch
Your kisses
Your hugs
Your voice
I miss those midnight phone calls on my birthday
Singing to me
The first to tell me happy birthday
You always made sure you were the first
You always took time out for me
No matter what you were doing
Or how busy you were
We talked all the time on the phone
Multiple times a day
I'd just show up at the house
And you'd get this big smile on your face
So happy to see us
So happy to see Jake
He was the light of your life
You'd do anything for us
How I wish you were here now
To help me through this tough time
But I know you're with me in spirit
And if you were here
I'd be with you and so would Jake
You wouldn't let him be taken from me

The sun comes out shining
It's gonna be another beautiful day
What to do with it
I don't know
It's the perfect temperature
A nice day to get out and play
But sleep is beckoning me
I haven't gotten much in the last couple of days
My body is tired
My eyes heavy
My heart saddened
Since my son left to go home with his Dad
I'm ready to have him here with me
I want to raise him like a mother should
I want to play with him
Watch him read his books
Help him with his homework
Do everything a mother should be doing with her kids
I miss him dearly
I lost him because of my own actions.