darkness

The depression won't lift
the darkness overtakes
i want to curl up and sleep
wake up when it's over
when i can be happy
thoughts of death overwhelm me
my son keeps me alive
meds seem to stop working
i just want this depression to lift
i'm tired of being depressed
i'm tired of feeling like nothing
worthless, helpless, hopeless
someone help me get out of it

Moms

It's the holidays
My moms favorite ones
Thanksgiving and Christmas
The tree would go up right after Thanksgiving
A family even to decorate the tree
Before she died,
even my two year old helped decorate the tree
Now, I spend my holidays alone
Jake with Jim in Pennsylvania
Me, home, here, with no one
I've lost my family
Ever since she died
It's always been Jims family we go to
Not much for me
but fun for Jake and nice for Jim
Now we're divorced
They go
I stay home
No one to celebrate with
Just me alone with my depression
Missing my mom
and all her big celebrations